Heart to Heart

When I was younger I was a little repelled by reading the book of Hosea. I found the story unsavory on many levels, the man being asked to seek out, marry and forgive his whorish wife. At first, it offended my innocence and then it offended my feminist spirit. I could not relate to its language and metaphor for Divine/human love and relationship. But somewhere along the way I began to really get it. Maybe after I lived more and gained perspective or maybe during my own awakening to Divine Love. Regardless, I have become so grateful to the author of Hosea and for its Divine inspiration.

Thus says the Lord: I will allure her; I will lead her into the desert and speak to her heart..I will espouse you to me forever: I will espouse you in right and in justice, in love and in mercy.

All that we need to know about Divine desire for us and the nature of our relationship is right there in those words. Allure means to enchant, captivate, entrance. God means to win us back by drawing us into the silence of the desert, the emptiness where nothing can distract or compete for our attention. There in the abyss God wishes to speak to our hearts in love and in mercy.
It is shocking at first, this view of God and us. We have been so brainwashed to feel guilt and shame, to let our unworthiness lead us to hide from God and from our own divine nature. But who would try to enchant or captivate one who was unworthy or beyond hope or redemption?
Instead God’s plan is to bring us to a place where we can be heart to heart. The language of the heart is gentle and kind and merciful. So let’s stop playing those tapes over and over, the ones that accuse, judge and find us lacking and guilty. Let’s stop believing the lies that limit us and deny our true nature as beloved. Let’s instead hear, feel and believe these words. Let us allow them to melt our defenses today and find a home in our heart:

I will espouse you to me forever.

About lchavez64

Seeker. Dreamer. Ordinary girl.

4 responses to “Heart to Heart

  1. Cindy Balfour

    Breathless! You say it so well. Unworthy ness has been something being revealedvto me in a whole new way totally not from the condemnation…more from, “here you are my beloved through no work or gesture of your own” I suddenly can glimpse the way I am unworthy. And it has nothing so much to do with me being a bad person or one who has done wrong because we all have. In my confession I am made worthy by Christ. In my life I am asked to live and love and share Christ as best I can not because I am so good that God hired me on. But because that’s simply what to do even tho unworthy. I find my heart more at peace in this practice and I find more that I notice love and can start to unravel the chaos. I try to be really patient and really see what The Hand Of God can bring about.

  2. Yes, patience! Over and over the same lesson. I have more or less successful since Lent practicing Centering Prayer and so far its just all about patience. I feel like the puppy being taught to stay, just itching to get up, wiggling my butt a little and just hearing the word over and over…stay….stay….stay 🙂 Much love!

  3. judyz

    You have a gift – God has blessed you with His wisdom, and you bless us with your written reflections … … thank you for sharing – miss you

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