…what are you waiting for? All you have to do is stop being who you think you are, and you couldn’t be more delightful! Because there’s nothing more beautiful than the uniqueness that God has created in us. It’s just buried like a diamond underneath a pile of garbage. That is not God’s fault, but the misuse of our freedom and the imposition on us of all the negative forces in the environment and our social milieu. It is a job to climb out of those influences. But all the work is in letting go of those influences and not reinforcing them.
“You don’t have to create the beauty – you’ve got the beauty. You don’t have to create the freedom – you’ve got it. You don’t have to create the image of God in you – you have it. You don’t have to win over God’s love – you have more than you know what to do with. You don’t have to become more beautiful – because nothing could be more beautiful than your own particular uniqueness.”
– Thomas Keating, Open Mind, Open Heart and Heartfulness: Transformation in Christ
And finally, I am starting to get it…I am not in charge. (You smile to yourself, maybe even chuckle a little…no, not laughing at me, but with me!)
I am not in charge of my spiritual journey. I am not in charge of my life. I am not in charge of me. When it sinks in, my whole body relaxes. Its as if I have been holding my breath, efforting and toiling and then I exhale. It feels so beautifully freeing and frightening all at the same time.
You can read it a hundred times. People can say it a million times but one day you know it and you are so, so relieved. Its not up to me! All I have to do is be there, be here, be available, show up, say yes. Say yes, even if at first its a whisper only God can hear.